I am so sorry for you loss. My friend meets with a grief group once a month called Compassionate Friends.
The Compassionate Friends, Inc.
Toll-free: 877-969-0010
PH: 630-990-0010
FAX: 630-990-0246
http://www.compassionatefriends.org/
I will pray for you.
I do not have any suggestions, I just wanted to tell you that I am so sorry for your loss. There's not much anyone can say or do to make it better, but you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Best wishes,
Angie
Hello, my name is Elizabeth. I am wondering...after five years, is is easier for you now to mourn the loss of your little boy? I am going through what you went through right this very moment. On may of 2012 I was really shocked to know that I was pregnant because I am sick with Lupus Nephritis ans suffer from hypertension. I already have a son who is 4, but my disease was diagnosed 2 years ago. On May 24 I was seven weeks pregnant and got the news that I was expecting twins, and around 5 months they told me it was a boy and a girl, and i was over the moon excited. When I was 27 weeks and two days I knew something wasnt right because I didnt feel any movement from my little girl so I went to the dr and he checked my babies but my little girl didn't have a heartbeat anymore. I was devastated and completely broke down. The dr immediately sent me to the hospital and had to deliver me via csection because I was also in kidney failure. My babies were both born at 1.9 pounds. I gor to hold my precious angel and also named her. We just had her burial service and it was the worst day of my life. I think about her everyday, and my little boy is in the NICU right now. He might stay there for at least another 12 weeks, he has a long way to go. If you can let me know how you have handled this horrible experience throughout the years, I would really appreciated. I'm really sorry for your loss.
Thank you.
Although I am not a mother and cannot fully relate to your story, I am a surviving twin. My identical twin sister was still born when we were about 6-7 months along. I was in the hospital for quite a while and weighed 3 lbs at birth. Due to the traumatic birth, I have a very mild case of cerebral palsy which really only affects me physically (I am very stiff all the time and I walk on my tip-toes). I have been searching for a support group and when I read your post, I signed up to this immediately so I could respond. I'm 21 now and finally allowing myself to truly embrace my loss. My mom never had other children, and she told me about my twin when I was 8. Even before then, I was always okay with doing my own thing as a child. Despite that, I have always felt very alone. I have been on antidepressants for some months now, and while those do help, I am sometimes hit out of nowhere with lonely feelings and even anger. My mom and I have always laughed about how I got my two personalities-mine and my twin's. I can't imagine what it would be like to be the mother of that situation. Although things may never get easier, you are very blessed. I wish you and your family well!